Super Saiyan 4 Vegeta, it wasn't really hard to draw at all, the inking took some time because i wanted to make the outline ink thicker than the inner stuff. Hopefully i can get some art stuff like, inking pens, and color pencils so i can bring my art to a whole nother level. As you can see iv just been experiencing with every drawing Inking different ways, not inking at all, shading different ways, and just trying to figure out what works best for me.

I liked you a lot (the way karma works)

The funny thing is you turned me down..

A while ago I had a thing for you, you knew this, and I believe you had a thing for me also. We talked frequently via Facebook and webcam, I can tell you began to like me as you got more and more comfortable with me. After some time I confessed my interest in you then you actually did the same. There was a problem though you didn't want to take a step forward you told me something like "I don't want a boyfriend i just want someone, no labels, I just want to exist with them" all that sounded like to me is, "I want to fuck, without being your lover so that we have no rules and we can fuck who ever we want", that upset me.

Now every time i see you post something on Facebook its about how you are tired of me, how this guy lead you on etc almost like you have been open to having a relationship with someone else other than me. Well it seems that karma has stuck her ugly foot into your ass because they are doing what you have done to me. Honestly i'm sorry its happening to you, it defiantly sucks to be interested in someone and find out they aren't interested the same way or doesn't want what you want. It happens, maybe next time you would play the roll right instead of having some kind of fear, I say it all the time "life is about taking risk".

The Sims 3 Rant

Is not really about the game itself because all and all its an amazing game compared to the 1st 2 versions. Yeah it may just be a game where you do nothing but be human but its the extra stuff, the freedom, the building, and creating. The Mods is what upsets me, the game is very sexist enough as it is, from the bat you can make attractive females they have nice clothing sleep wear etc but for a male all of the hairs look like old people hair or like something nobody actually wears.

Like any Sim user, we all look for downloadable content because we either want a cool looking sim, or our sim to resemble us as much as possible. Well when it comes to male hair, clothing, facial hair, and more "it aint gonna happen" I don't know if the content makers are sexist or weirdos because the only male hair i ever see is Anime stuff and white boy stuff. Me being mixed i need a bit of a verity i mean the braids are horrible on the Sims 3, there is no male pony tail, bun, or long hair that looks good it all looks shitty, and this angers me.

When searching for Sims 3 content for females its a whole different story 90% of these Sims 3 websites are only for females and they have all of the best things. The only way i would be able to enjoy the create a sim mode in The Sims 3 is if i were a gay or emo male but since thats not the case i have a hard time enjoying the create a sim mode when making myself or friends. I'm not trying to offend anybody but if you play the sims and you are an urban person you will notice it too.

I just wish somebody would take the time and think of the other folks that play, if i could become a developer i would but i don't have the time for it. Anyways ill post a photo of my sim and a photo of myself. I mean why cant a man have nice looking braided pig tails? mine look nice on me i should be able to do things like that with my sim.

Sigh

to the point where

you're so scared that

you can feel your heart

about to break free of your chest

you're stomach is filled with

nothing...nothing but empty ness

but its so empty that you feel it

to the point where

anything you watch

with music thats emotional

you can feel your eyes tear up

why are my eyes tearing up?

i dont even cry

to the point where

you wanna give up

shut down

close your eyes

and never wake up

only because it feels

as if that is the only thing

that can actually make a change

when you fear nothing

and something comes up

that you fear the most

you are at your weakest point

you dont know how to handle it

in any way shape or form

so what do you do

Some Updated photos

A relationship issue

I was currently in a short term relationship i don't even know if i would call it that. Me and this girl had been talking for months she was amazing, cute, nice, and funny i loved it, she was so into me. Only problem is she lived in Maryland and i live in NC, i didn't want to pursue a relationship that was long distance only because i have done them before and there is nothing but bad bad bad, to much extra bullshit. Anyways we was suppose to meet and we was gonna date once we met face to face, well once she got her check the ticket was to much money so that didnt happen. I decided we were going to meet anyways so i asked if she wanted to date and try to make it work.

One day everything changed, she told me ""Nick i have something to write on my blog and you're not going to like it but once i write it dont ask me about it" she never wrote it, so i ask what it was about and she insisted on not telling me. Well we argued and she stopped talking to me for the rest of the day, everyday after that she acted like she hated me, like she never wanted to talk at all, everything she said with an attitude. On her blog she wrote subliminal post and saying things like she never even wanted a boyfriend etc. As for me i had no idea what the hell was going on because she wouldn't let me know anything at all.

I talked to my best friend Angel about it, she tells me to dumb her, i talked to Angels girlfriend about it, she told me to dumb her too and said i don't deserve to be treated that way. Well me being me i wanted to play it out because i was really curious about was going on. Then i see my boy Rodney message her asking "why are you treating nick like shit?", now the funny thing is i never talked to Rodney or told him what was going on her just seen it thats when i knew i couldn't do it anymore. Not knowing what was going on was killing me plus my friends was noticing what she was doing before i had a chance to explain what was going on.

Our last conversation was a big argument but i mean its what ever im not pissed or sad or stressed because she left on such a bad term. I would post our conversations (the ones i have) so you all can read it but ima respect her by not doing that and by not saying her name. The thing is women need to get it together, i know guys are dogs but not all of them if you don't want to end up with a dumb ass nigga use your heads and stop taking out on the good ones because all you're doing is turning them into the ones you hate.

Sorry everyone i have been away from blogger

ill post something in a sec